Category Archives: heartbreak

the stages of breakups

Ah love. Sweet dreary love. It’s beautiful and wonderful until it all turns sour and you’re splitting up the towels, figuring out time-share custody of the dog and deciding who gets the friend neither of you really liked. When relationships … Continue reading

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recovering

The flashbacks are getting clearer. I’m remembering more from moments we shared and I can see him in every fine and small detail I loved. I’ve even dreamt about him, and I next to never dream about anyone who is … Continue reading

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connections

I’m sitting on the step of my trailer talking with Margo about life and how it feels to miss Dave – and this profound truth comes swimming into my head like an old memory from camp days when I was … Continue reading

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two months

I feel so incomplete without you here. There’s a hollowness in my gut and a black hole in my chest. My brain still feels like it’s on a spin cycle and my heart – it’s completely broken and grey. Two … Continue reading

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as for now

When I saw Dave in San Diego I gave him a jade necklace I picked out for him in New Zealand. He had given me his pin necklace before I had left, so I felt that I had to replace … Continue reading

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death

I’m crying a lot today. I think it has a lot to do with me numbing myself out lately. I know drinking will solve nothing, but when I have a few drinks at night it numbs me out. I’m not … Continue reading

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one month

Images of you are getting clearer. I can hear your voice and your subtle tones, your choice of words and confidence. Your touch on my face, your chest on my back, your smile, god I miss your smile, they’re all … Continue reading

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life

I have never been this sad. I have never felt so disappointed with life. And for the first time ever, in my whole entire existence, I actually believe that life is not fair. I never believed that before. But I … Continue reading

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Dave

Dave, you made my world bigger. You made my life more amazing. You made me more amazing. When people would talk about how awesome of a dude you were, I’d brim and think – that’s right, and he’s mine. When … Continue reading

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my grief

I have been reading up on grief. I suppose I was trying to find some explanation as to why I feel so crazy. My brain is constantly buzzing, like there’s a murmur of voices all at once but I can’t … Continue reading

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