Tag Archives: fear

freedom

We value our freedom in the West. In many ways this so-called freedom is what makes the West – the West. We’ve gotten comfortable being passive about the strings that control us, the rules that run our lives, the armies that keep … Continue reading

Posted in adventure | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

five years

I made it. I made it five years. Do I get a badge now? A congratulatory cookie? Is there some kind of database my name goes into detailing that I survived this … darkness? I really wanted to ask what … Continue reading

Posted in adventure | Tagged , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

attachment and love

Attachment is a strange thing. Love is even stranger. People have philosophized about love for millennia and it’s no wonder why. It messes with our senses. It invades our thoughts. It creates a most resilient form of attachment that even … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

a letter

Dear Dave, The weather’s beginning to change. It’s not that it’s cool out yet, not really, but I can wear jeans and it doesn’t bother me. You would be itching to leave here by now. But we would be leaving … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

two months

I feel so incomplete without you here. There’s a hollowness in my gut and a black hole in my chest. My brain still feels like it’s on a spin cycle and my heart – it’s completely broken and grey. Two … Continue reading

Posted in coping, crying, death, grief, heartbreak, loss, love, starting over | Tagged , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Dearest Dave.

My eyes are sore from crying. They feel like a thousand tons. It doesn’t really matter though, because it helps me rationalize why I can’t lift them to look anyone in the eyes. The world is still going. It’s still … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , | 1 Comment